The Title - Inevitably Imperfect

I honestly never thought about writing a blog. When I started therapy, (June 2023) almost a year ago, I began to journal a bit. My mom has always enjoyed my writing and told me that I should write a book- but doesn’t everybody’s mom compliment their kids in this way?? (LOL) Yesterday, March 30, 2024, Nicole (my fiancé) and I were sitting on the couch for the little time we had to relax that day, and I told her I was thinking about writing a blog. Being the most supportive person I have ever met, Nicole  (of course) asked a few questions and told me it was an incredible idea and could be a great outlet for me. We started brainstorming names for the blog. At first, I was really stuck on having the name relate to getting pictures taking because this is one of my biggest eating disorder/ body dysmorphia triggers. The first title that came to mind was “The Perfect Picture” - We agreed that this was too generic, but pointed us in the right direction. I wanted something to be able to reflect how badly I have tried to be the perfect picture of a person for so much of my life. 

And then it hit me, Inevitably Imperfect- it felt so right. 

Inevitably - defined on google as “certain to happen” “unavoidable”

Imperfect - defined on google as “not perfect, faulty, or incomplete” 

The title of my blog is so simple, yet so meaningful to me. The two words put together are so powerful, Inevitably Imperfect. To me, this relates so much to the, sometimes extreme, measures I would take to try to make myself/ my body “perfect”. But what you don’t realize when unhealthy habits are starting, is that no matter how thin you get, no matter how hard you try to reach perfection, you will NEVER be thin enough, pretty enough, smart enough, sexy enough. The thinnest thin is still not perfect- you still feel incomplete- you still feel like there is some way to get skinner- and you will do anything you can to find that trick that makes you even thinner. Sometimes we get this sensation to have things feel “just right” but with an eating disorder/ body dysmorphia, you are always seeking that “just right” feeling. In life, it is not maintainable or manageable to be perfect. We are inevitably imperfect- the task now- to accept that.